So, someone on my lj posted about
mistletw , which is a Torchwood holiday fic exchange and I am literally about to start flipping coins about whether to join or not.
A) I'm terrified I'll get Jack/Gwen as a pairing, and yes, while I get annoyed at that pairing, I can probably handle writing it, only it won't be fluffy at all, instead it'll be terrible, unrequited fic from Gwen's perspective involving dreams about Jack and Rhys never realising what's happening so it'll be more Gwen/Rhys and the person I'm writing for will probably spam me with curses. And then I'll get pissed off because well if someone writes you something, shut up and read it and thank them for it. If someone wrote what I asked for in a totally different way from what I expected I wouldn't act like a troll but people are assholes. (I'm in a mankind loving mood in case you couldn't tell).
B) Even if I get a pairing I do love, like Ianto/Owen, or Jack/Ianto or even, ooh, Tosh/Ianto (<3) it'd still be sad BECAUSE I CAN'T WRITE HAPPY FIC. And this is a holiday themed fest.
C) I have about 60 pages of Public International Law to get through and
my classes just started. I'll be in hell by December. Which is when I'll have to write it. I'm too lazy to do it now.
*sighs*
On top of everything else I have fever which is always bad because I have the weirdest...convulsions when I have fever beyond 101. And meds don't work on me because I had homeopathic medicine as a kid for migraines which fixed the migraines, but I think they had steroids because ordinary meds don't work on me at all. The first time I took valium I stayed awake for four hours before I finally succumbed to sleep.